Saturday, April 27, 2013

I Will Wait...


I have always wanted to be a wife and a mom.
I remember the times when I used to play "Wedding" at my grandmother's house, donning a fly netting as a veil and prancing up and down the aisle that was her driveway.
Up until August last year, I thought I had it all figured out.
I knew what the dress would look like and what the wedding colours would be and even who (I thought) would be standing next to me at the altar.
I wanted this fairytale more than I wanted a relationship with God and so, in love, I think He did what needed to happen.
For my own good He took my relationship away from me...
It was my idol, and since the end of that phase of my life, God has been teaching me to challenge my idols and rely on Him, allowing me to learn what it means to be completely fulfilled and at peace.
It has not been an easy road, but it has been a good one...
Below is a poem that I wrote as my "declaration of obedience" at a recent Easter Camp, and it is something that I have to remind myself of day after day.
If you are struggling with singleness (as I often do), know that God is walking it with you and that He loves you and desires the best for you.
I hope that sharing this helps you as it has helped me...

I know not your name,
Nor the colour of your hair.
I don't know your likes, your dislikes,
or the things about which you care.
But tonight I spoke to God,
And I said a prayer for you.
I asked Him to give you strength and courage,
And faith in the things that He says are true.
If, and when, we are connected,
It will be only by God's ultimate plan and design.
I give my hopes and dreams to Him,
for our two paths to become one line.
But I want you to know that I am considering you,
with any man I may court now.
I will respect him and treat him as a brother,
knowing that unless he is you, to someone else he may one day vow.
I will use my singleness to glorify God,
And rely on Him in all that I do;
Allowing Him to ever mould me into the one that you need and deserve.
I give myself to Him, in waiting for you.
One day, if we are connected;
I will be ready to be at your side;
Having spent this time learning grace, dignity and a serving heart;
So that in God our relationship may abide.
Today I vow to reserve,
My heart and my body for you.
For as I stand at our future wedding,
Christ's bride will become yours too.
I know not whether you even exist,
but as I long and hope that you do;
Please note that you will have to ask God for my heart,
For in Him, I shall wait for you.
Robyn Moll
(31 March 2013)


  1. My dear daughter,
    As your mother, I am so proud of you. Your wisdom speaks to many. Your heart is deep and beautiful. I am sure that God is preparing another for you - someone who is also 'waiting'. Be patient and rest in Him, my child. I love you!
    With love

  2. That is one of the most beautiful, well spoken, Godly, poems I've ever read. Robyn, I know you through your mom and I am so touched by your wonderful heard for God. Please know that whoever wins your heart will have been chosen by a Wonderful Father. I love you poem and have in mind someone to recommend it to. Thank you so much for writing it and for being so bold as to publish it. Blessings from the holler in Tennessee...

  3. Robyn, wait and be still. God will bring to you the right person when the time is right. Many times in my life I have wondered why 'this wasn't happening or that wasn't happening' only to find out that if events took place in 'my time' they would have been a disaster. In God's time they are perfect. You are a child of God and He only gives the best to his children. I can 'feel in my bones' that God has great things in store for you. Your life and your contribution to our world will be remarkable.